22Jul 2025

Dear diary, 
Exactly one month before was the day when I did what I shouldn't have done. But its okay I'm over it. But today, I've been trying to be grateful from the past few days, but there are somethings still on mind which I'm unable to connect with. Infact I have forgotten everything I guess. 
I know you care for me a lot. 
Maybe you were sleepy at that moment, that's why you didn't empower it much, when I said, its making me feel very bad since the itching has still not gone. Instead of telling/calming me that I know how you're feeling, is it still too painful/or fiery or anything. You just said, it will get fine baby, eat and complete the medicinal sessions and then tell. 

Why do I even think. I hate my mind. I hate all this over thinking. 

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